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Where do you talk to them then ?

Let me get back to you on that one.

 

[georges]

wow wow wow guys !! THANK YOU soo much for getting me into round three for best adult model and best cam girl and best ocsm ! This means soo soo much to me. I didnt get to see where I placed before midnight last night (longday) but im really thankful for everyone here thats done so much to keep me going. I know im not as well known as many of these girls but its so nice to have your support thank you soo soo much. I really hope to win one of them !! I was number 4 last i checked for best adult model which means a lot to me.. and best cam girl and ocsm im not 100% sure. But YAAY ! Im honoured
Here is once again a blog post for you guys ..its called

WHAT MAKES ME HOT AND BOTHERED

Hi Hi guys... I want to thank you all for all your support and love and concern. Its been a tough couple months and its gonna get a bit tougher but I will always be strong and bounce back . Nothing stops me im too driven and too supported by such awesome people to ever give up. Its good to have some real good people in your corner. Its always funny cause when times get tough thats when you see whos really there for you.

Anyways, Ive been having such a great time on cam getting to know all of you and meeting all of you theres tons of great things that have happend this year and people that I have met that are just kick ass ! I dont know what it is lately but ive been super horny. Im single and just havent had too much time to date and been so preoccupied that my horny time took a back seat lol. But latley all i've wanted to do is rub one out lol (hahah im like a girl in a boys locker room). Little things have been making me sooo horny. LOL so im gonna be a little naughty here ! Its almost xmas so why not its ok if im naughty. The other day I was driving in my car and the revving of the engine was actually making my pussy wet. Im thinking wow Tay its time to get laid lol hahah. So here are a few things that make me hot and bothered in the bedroom.

1. I love when a guy talks dirty to me.. in the bedroom its the biggest turn on ever. In the bedroom I'm very spontaneous and open minded

2. Dirty Morning Sex.. its yummy, its dirty, its raw. I love that I can just wake up in the morning turn over and get fucked !

3. I love my hair pulled and my ass spanked. Its great... doing it doggy with my hair pulled its the ultimate turn on !

4. Oily fun !!.. Bring it on .. I love slipping and slidng in the bedroom bodies oiled up boobies sliding every where.. that gives the ultimate titty fuck !

5. Last but certainly not least... BLOW JOBS.. I love to recieve (what girl doesnt) But more so I love to give head ! I love looking up in a guys eyes when I know hes about to explode alll over my face tits and mouth. CUM I LOVE IT !

I dont know why im being so naughty but I know you boys love love love it. So come join me at my free fanclub and lets get naughty !! I will be uploading some extremely naughty never before seen pics and vids so get your free screenname and get in on it right now !!

Make sure you guys keep voting for me in miss freeones round three is the most important and I really would love to win so please keep your voting up at www.vote4tay.com. If you register free at freeones your votes are worth 5 times more so please register and vote for me.

See you all soon

xoxo

Tay

that gets very interesting. :flame::boobies: What is the maximum cock size you like? I don't know if you are into latex or leather fetish but on you it will look good. What is your favorite position when making love?

Have a great day.

best regards and big hugs :kiss:

:georges:

 

[TAYSTEVENS]

Hi again guys.. thanks so much for getting me to round three.. even having a chance among such beautiful ladies means a lot. Ive been dealing with a lot latley and the wonderful support and comments here mean a lot. This is a great place to meet some pretty great people, im glad to be a part of it and win or lose I will remain a part of it because ive made really good friends here. Theres something to be said about fans that keep pushing for you and keep doing their part and taking time out of their day to help you. Right now i want to cherish every moment and everyone. Thank you so much for everything guys.. live like your dying are my words right now. Hugs..
Here is my blog posting for you guys all updates are at www.taystevens.com

Hey guys ! I love answering your questions its so awesome being interviewd by the people I love the most my fans !! You guys rock ! Whether its good comments, great questions or bad comments and idiocy I still love to answer it. Ive been so open with my fans from the very beginning. I love knocking your socks off while you get your rocks off ! heheh. Its so cool to get to know you on a deeper level. And of course ive always been an open book with my fans and I love letting you get to know me more and more.

So here are some more formspring questions for you guys ! Make sure you join the free fanclub this week cause I have a ton of surprises in store for you guys ! Its a free screenname away and you get to see me play
woot.

And guys I NEED YOU BAD !! I need you to VOTE for me in this third round for best adult model, best cam girl and best ocsm. I have to win one category so I need you all. If you register @freeones your vote is worth 4 times more so register @ freeones and hit up www.vote4tay.com and check my boxes !

1. Whats the strangest compliment you've ever recieved from someone ?
I get soo many compliments and they range from "i love your glasses' to your tits are huge and so on but I thing not strange but different was " you have amazing teeth" im like thanks ! I love that because a smile means so much to so many people. And the weirdest one was like " your so hot you look so much like my sister" i was like ummm k bye lol.

2. What sport were you involved in in high school ?
Well I was very active basketball, volleyball and cheerleading but I had to choose 1 sport so I chose volleyball and I rocked it my boobies were bouncing every where. I may be short but I was power and my spike could kill you lol Besides I think the whole basketball team and boys loved to stay and see me play after school for practice. We were really good ! I may be short but boy can I jump

3. Shame on you !
Lol... umm k.. noo shame on YOU ! What exactly should I be ashamed of ? I love my life I love what I do and I love my fans. I put myself out there and I am 100% happy with my decisions and stand by them. You on the other hand post an anonymous comment with no name and no explanation I just looked down and I think I have more balls then you. Pussy. (i just hate trolls like that)

4. Do you know Jimmy Choo ?
Lol... i know him and his shoes. If i knew him personally I would have a house dedicated to shoes alone lol. But yes I love Choo.

5. Have you or do you ever want to do something with Tori Black ?
Tori and I had an encounter in Miami by the pool she is amazing and extremely sexual and beautiful. So yes I have and Yes I would !

6. Song of the moment ?
Right now absolutley Nicki MInaj Fly... thats my song those are my lyrics esp now with everything im dealing with. Not to mention her voice is fkn beautiful.

7. Dream gift right now ?
Superbowl tickets and Nicki Minaj concert tickets... but you can all check out my wishlist for those that asked to purchase somethings for me. I do send a gift back

8. Would you either be rich and miserable or dead broke and happy ?
This is an easy answer for me. Money cant buy hapiness. It buys you comfort, luxery and temporary hapiness but its not real. Id rather be really truly happy from the inside out then rich and unhappy. I would hate to end up like those wives who have the rich husband who nevr pays attention to her and she just goes and spends his money. What kind of life is that ? I dunno not one for me . Im not saying I would want to be broke either but I would def not want to be miserable.

9. Tay, I know you love sports and are great with sportsbetting whats the line on the Saints game.. I know your vikings lost but help us that dont know much about sportsbetting..
Woot I love sportsbetting and Im damn good at it lol. I had a 14 pic parlay the other week and who screwed me .. green bay by losing to the lions lol. Todays line on the saints is +2 for the spread and the money line is +115 the ravens are favoured here but I have a good feeling about the saints. As for the vikings it sucks this year that they fucked up so bad. Theres a lot of talent on that team. I got to see them live though at the 50 yard line 1st row !

10. Im sorry to hear about everything your going through. Just know We love and care about you very much.
Thank you so much, now is a very trying time for me. But i know im a fighter inside and its amazing to know I have the support of my fans. Thank you all so so much.

I will be online at the freefanclub later so make sure you get your free screenname and come see all the NEW vids and pics im uploading !

DONT FORGET TO VOTE !

xoxo
Tay

 

[offcgibby]

Hi again guys.. thanks so much for getting me to round three.. even having a chance among such beautiful ladies means a lot. Ive been dealing with a lot latley and the wonderful support and comments here mean a lot. This is a great place to meet some pretty great people, im glad to be a part of it and win or lose I will remain a part of it because ive made really good friends here. Theres something to be said about fans that keep pushing for you and keep doing their part and taking time out of their day to help you. Right now i want to cherish every moment and everyone. Thank you so much for everything guys.. live like your dying are my words right now. Hugs..
Here is my blog posting for you guys all updates are at www.taystevens.com

Hey guys ! I love answering your questions its so awesome being interviewd by the people I love the most my fans !! You guys rock ! Whether its good comments, great questions or bad comments and idiocy I still love to answer it. Ive been so open with my fans from the very beginning. I love knocking your socks off while you get your rocks off ! heheh. Its so cool to get to know you on a deeper level. And of course ive always been an open book with my fans and I love letting you get to know me more and more.

So here are some more formspring questions for you guys ! Make sure you join the free fanclub this week cause I have a ton of surprises in store for you guys ! Its a free screenname away and you get to see me play
woot.

And guys I NEED YOU BAD !! I need you to VOTE for me in this third round for best adult model, best cam girl and best ocsm. I have to win one category so I need you all. If you register @freeones your vote is worth 4 times more so register @ freeones and hit up www.vote4tay.com and check my boxes !

1. Whats the strangest compliment you've ever recieved from someone ?
I get soo many compliments and they range from "i love your glasses' to your tits are huge and so on but I thing not strange but different was " you have amazing teeth" im like thanks ! I love that because a smile means so much to so many people. And the weirdest one was like " your so hot you look so much like my sister" i was like ummm k bye lol.

2. What sport were you involved in in high school ?
Well I was very active basketball, volleyball and cheerleading but I had to choose 1 sport so I chose volleyball and I rocked it my boobies were bouncing every where. I may be short but I was power and my spike could kill you lol Besides I think the whole basketball team and boys loved to stay and see me play after school for practice. We were really good ! I may be short but boy can I jump

3. Shame on you !
Lol... umm k.. noo shame on YOU ! What exactly should I be ashamed of ? I love my life I love what I do and I love my fans. I put myself out there and I am 100% happy with my decisions and stand by them. You on the other hand post an anonymous comment with no name and no explanation I just looked down and I think I have more balls then you. Pussy. (i just hate trolls like that)

4. Do you know Jimmy Choo ?
Lol... i know him and his shoes. If i knew him personally I would have a house dedicated to shoes alone lol. But yes I love Choo.

5. Have you or do you ever want to do something with Tori Black ?
Tori and I had an encounter in Miami by the pool she is amazing and extremely sexual and beautiful. So yes I have and Yes I would !

6. Song of the moment ?
Right now absolutley Nicki MInaj Fly... thats my song those are my lyrics esp now with everything im dealing with. Not to mention her voice is fkn beautiful.

7. Dream gift right now ?
Superbowl tickets and Nicki Minaj concert tickets... but you can all check out my wishlist for those that asked to purchase somethings for me. I do send a gift back

8. Would you either be rich and miserable or dead broke and happy ?
This is an easy answer for me. Money cant buy hapiness. It buys you comfort, luxery and temporary hapiness but its not real. Id rather be really truly happy from the inside out then rich and unhappy. I would hate to end up like those wives who have the rich husband who nevr pays attention to her and she just goes and spends his money. What kind of life is that ? I dunno not one for me . Im not saying I would want to be broke either but I would def not want to be miserable.

9. Tay, I know you love sports and are great with sportsbetting whats the line on the Saints game.. I know your vikings lost but help us that dont know much about sportsbetting..
Woot I love sportsbetting and Im damn good at it lol. I had a 14 pic parlay the other week and who screwed me .. green bay by losing to the lions lol. Todays line on the saints is +2 for the spread and the money line is +115 the ravens are favoured here but I have a good feeling about the saints. As for the vikings it sucks this year that they fucked up so bad. Theres a lot of talent on that team. I got to see them live though at the 50 yard line 1st row !

10. Im sorry to hear about everything your going through. Just know We love and care about you very much.
Thank you so much, now is a very trying time for me. But i know im a fighter inside and its amazing to know I have the support of my fans. Thank you all so so much.

I will be online at the freefanclub later so make sure you get your free screenname and come see all the NEW vids and pics im uploading !

DONT FORGET TO VOTE !

xoxo
Tay

I have some questions for you, Number 1 Why do you like being in the adult industry? 2 What other sports do you like? 3Are you aware that your free fan site asks for a credit card number? ( don't know if you are aware of that or not)4 What is so interesting about having sex on a daily basis for others to watch? ( this always has me puzzled) Have you thought about where you will be in say 5-10 years from now? 6 What is your Ideal guy? 7 With your answer about Tori Black, who do you like better Men or Women? (Not talking about the little boys that hurt you). Why don't you answer questions on Formspring, you only answer them on other sites like Myspace.
Would you pm me after you read this?

 

[Master806]

Taylor Stevens your pics are always hot but not vulgar!!! Great job!! ...PS I love your smile!!

 

[TAYSTEVENS]

Hey guys.. wanted to thank you all again for your votes and keeping me going. Im glad that I have you in my corner. Im going through a tough time right now and your support and encouragement is amazing. My recent blog update is about hanging xmas ornaments have you hung yours yet ?.
Love you tons here are my jingle boobie bells... dont forget to join the free fanclub at www.playwithtay.com
xoxo
Tay
www.taystevens.com
www.vote4tay.com

 

[copeo]

One more new OCSM today and that is Emma Ink.
Her profile can be found here.

Nice Freeones-Tattoo on the finger :thumbsup:

 

[feller469]

lovely holiday decor

 

[TAYSTEVENS]

Hi again guys.. thank you all for keeping me in your thoughts and for giving me your support and your votes. I wanted to fill you all in on whats going on since many of you have asked. Here are some more christmas pics for you and a blog update. Im really lucky and glad to be surrounded by such beautiful women and men. Love you guys. !

AN OPEN HEART.. FROM MINE TO YOURS
Hey guys..I didnt want to have to post this blog, because its christmas and I wasnt sure if posting was right or not. I have always been an open book to my friends and fans, I have always let you see good bad and ugly. I debated over this because it is a very personal issue and a very trying time for me but I decided that Im not changing who I am because something is too personal. You guys have supported me loved me and been there through all my ups downs good times bad times. So I write this because I am staying true to me and to you. A lot of you know ive been dealing with a lot of health issues latley sprining back from november after glamourcon. I have given some details but I havent really told everyone whats going on and a lot of you have been concerned. A few friends close to me told me not to mention the truth about whats going on because it will bring back a lot of negative from people who have ill will, are jealous, mean spirited and so on. I know that there are a few that will be happy and relish in the fact that something bad is happening to me because it brings in a positive for them. (believe it or not there are some mean ass people out there).

I am writing this with tears in my eyes because im scared, im scared and im frustrated and angry. You all know me as the bubbly loveable taylor, that i am. But we all have a side we hate to bring out but it comes out from time to time. I try hard to give you all the best of me all the time, but every superman has their kryptonite. This blog post is only for those who want to know whats going on and care. I could use your prayers and your love right now.

Back in Long beach at glamourcon, I was feeling a lot of pain after the flight there and went through a lot of pain, at first I thought it was muscle pain and tried the icy hot patches and massages, but the day of glamourcon I all of a sudden got very cold and sick and felt this stabbing pain in my chest, back and side. I went to the emergency room where they did a ton of tests on me and then proceeded to tell me I needed a biopsy because there was a mass a large mass in my chest between my heart and lungs. Thinking I was going back to Canada soon I thought I could deal with the pain and then face the doctors when I got back home, so I discharged myself from St. Mary's in longbeach and went back to the hotel. I still managed to do a photoshoot that day but then that night the pain got worse and worse and I had to go to emergency where they kept me overnight and performed a biopsy to see if this tumor was begnin. After a few days I found out that the tumour was begnin but it had to be removed as soon as possible because its already very large and growing and if its not removed soon it would become malignant.

After arriving home I had a doctors appt right away, and had all the information from the hospital, including CT scan and what not. The pain still is as it was unbearable. The doctor here wanted me to have another biopsy right away because the hospital in Long beach did not get enough tissue to test. The other day I went for the lung biopsy and it was one of the most painful things I ever had to experience. It wasnt supposed to hurt but my lung collaspsed during the biopsy and the pain is practically unbearable even with pain killers.

I got to see the tumour and its sitting on my heart between my lungs and heart and is in a very dangerous spot. The doctors diagnosis was that it was originally diagnosed as a Thymoma however the new biopsy was to test for Lymphoma. I wont find out the results of that biopsy till Xmas eve morning. (merry xmas to me). My surgeon wanted to schedule a surgery asap regardless of the outcome so today I had my preop which included a bunch of tests, nurses telling me how much pain im going to be in and that I will have to be in the hospital 5 days minimum including new years eve. My surgery date is scheduled for december 30th, the doctor was on vacation during that time and is coming in specifically to do my surgery due to the severity of it. On Xmas eve.. when santa is delivering his presents I will find out if it is cancer or not. Either way its a double edged sword. If the tumor is begnin the surgery will go as scheduled on December 30th which includes severe pain, scars, and high risk of something going wrong because of the size of the tumour (its huge) and location, If its cancer then the chemotherapy begins and with that comes side effects.

Im still trying to digest the thought that I may have cancer and that this is happening to me. Im being brutally honest here with everyone because the emotion I feel right now is intense and there are not many people in my life that I have to share this news with. My first thought was what scars ? no way im not doing it. How unreal is that ? Im faced with life and death and my first thought was cosmetic. Its hard to even say out loud. Right now im in the hurry up and wait till friday moment. Im in a lot of pain and im trying to be strong and carry on like normal but its a struggle. Im just really sad and angry at a lot of things right now. But im really lucky when I think about who I have in my corner and that I have a lot of people who love and care about me and genuinely see me as person and not just some model or just big tits etc. I wanted to open up about this sooner but I was hesitant for many reasons. But If i wasnt true to you guys I wouldnt be true to myself.

I want to thank all of you who are still voting every day at
www.vote4tay.com and for those of you who ask me every day how my hospital visit went etc, for the emails, the flowers, the cards the gifts and mainly the kind words. You are all amazing. I know there are those of you who are reading this ( you know who you are) that are hoping for the worst for me, and thats fine but I will pull through this. I will stay strong. I have been through hell and back in my life and I wont let a little cancer stop me. I just wanted you all to know that I havent not been around because I didnt want to be. This is what ive been dealing with every day. Driving to the hospital has become a regular thing. Bloodwork, chest x rays, etc have been plentiful.

Im sad to say I wont be at the AVN's this year because I will be spending new years in the hospital and have to stay a minimum of 5 days if there are no complications. Im really upset to be missing the AVN's and seeing my fans and bouncing around for you guys. I will be online though at the free fanclub from now till surgery and as soon as the doctor gives me the okay after that. Im sorry to be the downer during this time of year, I just had to let this out and let you all know whats really going on. Please wish me luck , your prayers and your well wishes and thoughts mean everything to me. Friday is judgment day.

I wish you all an amazing xmas and a great new year ( we all need a great new start to the year). I will still be around till then and after (crosses fingers) I just wanted to be an open book or open heart so all of you knew where I was coming from and why I wouldnt be at the AVN's this year. And I want you all to be with me thru this.

Im angry and I ask god or whomever why this is happening to me. I spend my life being healthy doing everything right and why is this happening to me ? But things happen for a reason and I believe I just need to over come this. For those who think this is gonna stop me from doing me.. think again. Ill still be bouncing around kicking ass and taking names. I think its ironic I did a shoot for breast cancer just recently and im now faced with the possibility of lymphoma. Im going through so many emotions right now its hard to define. Im just lucky to have all of you in my life. Your not just numbers to me you never were. I know so many of you have faced similar or tough struggles in your life and Im gonna take that energy and be strong. This is one of the toughest times of my life right now and I cant thank you all enough for everything. Theres a song right now that I listen to over and over all day because it keeps me postive. I would love for all of you listen to it its by Nicki Minaj (of course lol). Its called fly...Here are the lyrics:

I came to win, to fight, to conquer, to thrive
I came to win, to survive, to prosper, to rise
To fly
To fly
[Nicki Minaj]
I wish today it will rain all day
Maybe that will kinda make the pain go awayTrying to forgive you for abandoning me
Praying but I think I’m still an angel away
Angel away, yeah strange in a wayMaybe that is why I chase strangers away
They got their guns out aiming at me
But I become near when they aiming at me
Me, me, me against them
Me against enemies, me against friendsSomehow they both seem to become one
A sea full of sharks and they all see blood
They start coming and I start rising
Must be surprising, I’m just summising
Win, thrive, soar, higher, higher, higher
More fire

[Rihanna - Chorus]
I came to win, to fight, to conquer, to thrive
I came to win, to survive, to prosper, to rise
To fly
To fly

[Nicki Minaj - Verse 2]
Everybody wanna try to box me in
Suffocating everytime it locks me in
Paint they own pictures than they crop me in
But I will remain where the top begins

Cause I am not a word, I am not a line
I am not a girl that can every be defined
I am not fly, I am levitation
I represent an entire generation
I hear the criticism loud and clear
That is how I know that the time is near
So we become alive in a time of fearAnd I aint got no muthaf-cking time to spare
Cry my eyes out for days upon days
Such a heavy burden placed upon me
But when you go hard your nay’s become yay’s
Yankee Stadium with Jay’s and Kanye’s

[Rihanna - Chorus]
I came to win, to fight, to conquer, to thrive
I came to win, to survive, to prosper, to rise
To fly
To fly

[Nicki Minaj - Bridge]
Get ready for it
Get ready for it
Get ready for it
I came to win
Get ready for it
Get ready for it
I came to win

[Rihanna - Chorus]
I came to win, to fight, to conquer, to thrive
I came to win, to survive, to prosper, to rise
To fly
To fly

I wont let this kill my spirit, this will make me stronger. I love you guys. I really do . No matter what happens I will always be me and I will always be there for you guys as you are for me. I will continue to smile and bounce back I promise ! I wish you all and your families and amazing xmas and a happy new year. We are gonna rock 2011 right ? ! of course we are.

Oh and if you thought that because this post is a not so happy post I wasnt going to post some hot ass sexy pics of me think again. I wont let anything or anyone change me. SO below are some hot ass pictures ! Join the free fanclub by getting your free screenname for the full set and then some

MUAH !!

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[offcgibby]

Hi again guys.. thank you all for keeping me in your thoughts and for giving me your support and your votes. I wanted to fill you all in on whats going on since many of you have asked. Here are some more christmas pics for you and a blog update. Im really lucky and glad to be surrounded by such beautiful women and men. Love you guys. !

AN OPEN HEART.. FROM MINE TO YOURS
Hey guys..I didnt want to have to post this blog, because its christmas and I wasnt sure if posting was right or not. I have always been an open book to my friends and fans, I have always let you see good bad and ugly. I debated over this because it is a very personal issue and a very trying time for me but I decided that Im not changing who I am because something is too personal. You guys have supported me loved me and been there through all my ups downs good times bad times. So I write this because I am staying true to me and to you. A lot of you know ive been dealing with a lot of health issues latley sprining back from november after glamourcon. I have given some details but I havent really told everyone whats going on and a lot of you have been concerned. A few friends close to me told me not to mention the truth about whats going on because it will bring back a lot of negative from people who have ill will, are jealous, mean spirited and so on. I know that there are a few that will be happy and relish in the fact that something bad is happening to me because it brings in a positive for them. (believe it or not there are some mean ass people out there).

I am writing this with tears in my eyes because im scared, im scared and im frustrated and angry. You all know me as the bubbly loveable taylor, that i am. But we all have a side we hate to bring out but it comes out from time to time. I try hard to give you all the best of me all the time, but every superman has their kryptonite. This blog post is only for those who want to know whats going on and care. I could use your prayers and your love right now.

Back in Long beach at glamourcon, I was feeling a lot of pain after the flight there and went through a lot of pain, at first I thought it was muscle pain and tried the icy hot patches and massages, but the day of glamourcon I all of a sudden got very cold and sick and felt this stabbing pain in my chest, back and side. I went to the emergency room where they did a ton of tests on me and then proceeded to tell me I needed a biopsy because there was a mass a large mass in my chest between my heart and lungs. Thinking I was going back to Canada soon I thought I could deal with the pain and then face the doctors when I got back home, so I discharged myself from St. Mary's in longbeach and went back to the hotel. I still managed to do a photoshoot that day but then that night the pain got worse and worse and I had to go to emergency where they kept me overnight and performed a biopsy to see if this tumor was begnin. After a few days I found out that the tumour was begnin but it had to be removed as soon as possible because its already very large and growing and if its not removed soon it would become malignant.

After arriving home I had a doctors appt right away, and had all the information from the hospital, including CT scan and what not. The pain still is as it was unbearable. The doctor here wanted me to have another biopsy right away because the hospital in Long beach did not get enough tissue to test. The other day I went for the lung biopsy and it was one of the most painful things I ever had to experience. It wasnt supposed to hurt but my lung collaspsed during the biopsy and the pain is practically unbearable even with pain killers.

I got to see the tumour and its sitting on my heart between my lungs and heart and is in a very dangerous spot. The doctors diagnosis was that it was originally diagnosed as a Thymoma however the new biopsy was to test for Lymphoma. I wont find out the results of that biopsy till Xmas eve morning. (merry xmas to me). My surgeon wanted to schedule a surgery asap regardless of the outcome so today I had my preop which included a bunch of tests, nurses telling me how much pain im going to be in and that I will have to be in the hospital 5 days minimum including new years eve. My surgery date is scheduled for december 30th, the doctor was on vacation during that time and is coming in specifically to do my surgery due to the severity of it. On Xmas eve.. when santa is delivering his presents I will find out if it is cancer or not. Either way its a double edged sword. If the tumor is begnin the surgery will go as scheduled on December 30th which includes severe pain, scars, and high risk of something going wrong because of the size of the tumour (its huge) and location, If its cancer then the chemotherapy begins and with that comes side effects.

Im still trying to digest the thought that I may have cancer and that this is happening to me. Im being brutally honest here with everyone because the emotion I feel right now is intense and there are not many people in my life that I have to share this news with. My first thought was what scars ? no way im not doing it. How unreal is that ? Im faced with life and death and my first thought was cosmetic. Its hard to even say out loud. Right now im in the hurry up and wait till friday moment. Im in a lot of pain and im trying to be strong and carry on like normal but its a struggle. Im just really sad and angry at a lot of things right now. But im really lucky when I think about who I have in my corner and that I have a lot of people who love and care about me and genuinely see me as person and not just some model or just big tits etc. I wanted to open up about this sooner but I was hesitant for many reasons. But If i wasnt true to you guys I wouldnt be true to myself.

I want to thank all of you who are still voting every day at
www.vote4tay.com and for those of you who ask me every day how my hospital visit went etc, for the emails, the flowers, the cards the gifts and mainly the kind words. You are all amazing. I know there are those of you who are reading this ( you know who you are) that are hoping for the worst for me, and thats fine but I will pull through this. I will stay strong. I have been through hell and back in my life and I wont let a little cancer stop me. I just wanted you all to know that I havent not been around because I didnt want to be. This is what ive been dealing with every day. Driving to the hospital has become a regular thing. Bloodwork, chest x rays, etc have been plentiful.

Im sad to say I wont be at the AVN's this year because I will be spending new years in the hospital and have to stay a minimum of 5 days if there are no complications. Im really upset to be missing the AVN's and seeing my fans and bouncing around for you guys. I will be online though at the free fanclub from now till surgery and as soon as the doctor gives me the okay after that. Im sorry to be the downer during this time of year, I just had to let this out and let you all know whats really going on. Please wish me luck , your prayers and your well wishes and thoughts mean everything to me. Friday is judgment day.

I wish you all an amazing xmas and a great new year ( we all need a great new start to the year). I will still be around till then and after (crosses fingers) I just wanted to be an open book or open heart so all of you knew where I was coming from and why I wouldnt be at the AVN's this year. And I want you all to be with me thru this.

Im angry and I ask god or whomever why this is happening to me. I spend my life being healthy doing everything right and why is this happening to me ? But things happen for a reason and I believe I just need to over come this. For those who think this is gonna stop me from doing me.. think again. Ill still be bouncing around kicking ass and taking names. I think its ironic I did a shoot for breast cancer just recently and im now faced with the possibility of lymphoma. Im going through so many emotions right now its hard to define. Im just lucky to have all of you in my life. Your not just numbers to me you never were. I know so many of you have faced similar or tough struggles in your life and Im gonna take that energy and be strong. This is one of the toughest times of my life right now and I cant thank you all enough for everything. Theres a song right now that I listen to over and over all day because it keeps me postive. I would love for all of you listen to it its by Nicki Minaj (of course lol). Its called fly...Here are the lyrics:

I came to win, to fight, to conquer, to thrive
I came to win, to survive, to prosper, to rise
To fly
To fly
[Nicki Minaj]
I wish today it will rain all day
Maybe that will kinda make the pain go awayTrying to forgive you for abandoning me
Praying but I think I’m still an angel away
Angel away, yeah strange in a wayMaybe that is why I chase strangers away
They got their guns out aiming at me
But I become near when they aiming at me
Me, me, me against them
Me against enemies, me against friendsSomehow they both seem to become one
A sea full of sharks and they all see blood
They start coming and I start rising
Must be surprising, I’m just summising
Win, thrive, soar, higher, higher, higher
More fire

[Rihanna - Chorus]
I came to win, to fight, to conquer, to thrive
I came to win, to survive, to prosper, to rise
To fly
To fly

[Nicki Minaj - Verse 2]
Everybody wanna try to box me in
Suffocating everytime it locks me in
Paint they own pictures than they crop me in
But I will remain where the top begins

Cause I am not a word, I am not a line
I am not a girl that can every be defined
I am not fly, I am levitation
I represent an entire generation
I hear the criticism loud and clear
That is how I know that the time is near
So we become alive in a time of fearAnd I aint got no muthaf-cking time to spare
Cry my eyes out for days upon days
Such a heavy burden placed upon me
But when you go hard your nay’s become yay’s
Yankee Stadium with Jay’s and Kanye’s

[Rihanna - Chorus]
I came to win, to fight, to conquer, to thrive
I came to win, to survive, to prosper, to rise
To fly
To fly

[Nicki Minaj - Bridge]
Get ready for it
Get ready for it
Get ready for it
I came to win
Get ready for it
Get ready for it
I came to win

[Rihanna - Chorus]
I came to win, to fight, to conquer, to thrive
I came to win, to survive, to prosper, to rise
To fly
To fly

I wont let this kill my spirit, this will make me stronger. I love you guys. I really do . No matter what happens I will always be me and I will always be there for you guys as you are for me. I will continue to smile and bounce back I promise ! I wish you all and your families and amazing xmas and a happy new year. We are gonna rock 2011 right ? ! of course we are.

Oh and if you thought that because this post is a not so happy post I wasnt going to post some hot ass sexy pics of me think again. I wont let anything or anyone change me. SO below are some hot ass pictures ! Join the free fanclub by getting your free screenname for the full set and then some

MUAH !!

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I will keep you in my prayers. I believe that everything will be ok. Don't ever give into fear, for it will destroy you. You have to keep fighting and never give up the warrior spirit. Life is a battle. At least you are dealing with it now instead of waiting months. I believe That God is Healing you. ( I bow to God not to any man.):bowdown: Remember this Taylor, Things which are seen are subject to change. If you can see it feel its effects than it is subject to change. God bless, Pm me after you read this. I would like to converse with you in private.

 

[TAYSTEVENS]

Hi everyone..I hope you all have a very merry xmas and santa brings you everything you want this year. I know the smell of turkey and pies and yumminess is going around the places for all of you. I hope you enjoy it. And for those of you who arent doing anything super special take the day to yourself and enjoy it. Thats what I do.

I know a Lot of you are waiting for an update from me about my biopsy. Sadly this morning I found out I do have Cancer. I have lymphoma and will have to try and treat it through chemo and radiation. Its never something I thought I would have to face and def not something I was prepared for. Im really scared and I know I have a long battle to face and I thank you all for all your well wishes support and love during this time. I will fight this. I will win. I am a fighter... you tell me I cant do something and I will show you I can. I wont lie and say that now im in a moment of extreme weakness and feeling like the world just fell from under me and to find out on xmas eve is not really ideal. But then again what is anymore right ? Hey at least now I can try on some kick ass wigs and have fun with my look ( trying a positive here). I just wanted to let you all know whats going on. I havent really had time to digest this all so im just going to try and spend the night with my doggie and pretend like today didnt happen. Even for a day.

I wish you all the bestest christmas ever you all deserve it. Dont let this news affect you in a negative way.. I came to win and I will. Thank you for taking the time to say a prayer, send a card, send a wish. Ty all for everything. I will be online this week dont think this will stop me. So get your free screename and come visit. Ill show you my talent for licking candy canes . I gotta keep my chin up but I will take some time to sulk.

Dont forget to vote your assess off www.vote4tay.com every day till January 1st then ill get off your asses lol.

Love you all so so much. Merry Christmas and get Santas fat bum down your chimney save me some cookies.

xoxo

Tay

 

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