First, I wasn't able to find another thread like this, so I apologize if there is one floating around this forum.
I am 22 years old and began jerking off to internet porn since I was 11. The longest I've gone since then was 9 days at summer camp, other than that, maybe 5 days max, but it's mostly been at least once a day for the last 11 years. I have a somewhat active sex life, with no steady partner but I am tall and have decent looks and enjoy going to bars to pick up women, so I don't think it's a result of outright sexual frustration.
I consider myself to be someone with great will power and self control, I set high life goals for myself and almost always achieve them. I've graduated University with high marks and am off to law school in the fall. This has taken great mental discipline, but some how I cannot control myself when it comes to jacking it to porn online. If I am around my mates all day, the thought usually doesn't cross my mind, but if I am alone in a house, I'll spank it 3+ times until my penis actually starts to hurt. I always feel guilty afterwords and tell myself "this is the last time", but the next day I always rationalize it to myself and end up doing it again.
I want to say that masturbation has many positives. I do not feel it is a immoral or bad activity, but I feel my time can be spent doing something more productive, and I believe that the amount i've spanked it leads me to become lethargic and tired. I want to kick the habit, and "move on". Has anyone went through this before? What helps and what should I avoid? Any suggestions would be appreciated, I've tried searching Google but nothing seems tailored to my situation.
Thanks in advance, and I wish to restate that I have no ill feelings towards masterbation or those who masterbate, but I feel on an personal level my life would be enriched if I stopped, or at least cut back severely (wet dreams are gross lol, i'd rather rub one out every week or so to avoid it
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