Re: the Official Nikki Nova thread
A wise man once told me that sometimes less is more.
And I would like to second the Happy ******'s Day wishes as well.
And Jon I look at it this way, while most guys can become fathers, not all are cut out to be ****.
You're absolutely right on target there who??? Though my *** has been dead now for 18 years, I still can not muster any feelings for him either way. When I was a doe eyed young boy, I guess I loved him. I grew to have no feelings about him whatsoever. I can't say I hated him...because I never really felt that way...but, like I said, at the same time, as I grew more aware of things, the love I had went away & by the time he died, I had nothing but apathy for him.
Heck I didn't even learn that he died until I filed for ***** support again because I had enrolled in college. I got a letter from Domestic Relations stating that the hearing had been cancelled because the Petitioner (me) was deceased. I called and found out that that was a typo, and in fact the defendant (or whatever they are called in support cases) was dead. And I guess that must have been about 4-5 months after the fact. What can I say, the man had great timing.
But seriously, In college, in my early 20s, I would talk to girls about the fact that my *** was dead, and they would all act like it was really sad and try to comfort me...funny thing is that, like I said, I had nothing but apathy for the man and I couldn't even pretend to be devastated, distraught, or even really sad for that matter...not even as a play for more sympathy from girls who felt it was really sad. Honestly, I've always had a hard time being fake...and my feelings for my *** are no exception.
Like I said, I could say I **** him...but I don't. I just don't have any feelings for him at all. The fact that he has been dead for 18 years is just another thing to make me feel old...little more. Am I glad he's dead...of course not. Am I sad? I just can't muster that emotion for him. He had a good job with the State...and pissed it away because of his ********...even though they offered to let him do rehab on the weekends...he refused. I guess I can be thankful that I was not exposed to his boozing anyway & he was an inspiration to me never to start.
Bottom line, my *** basically never did anything for me or my *******, and didn't give anything that he wasn't ****** to do. I remember my *** telling me when she first filed for support in the 70s & my *** told her if she showed up for the hearing that "there would be trouble"! She asked her attorney what she should do. He told her "get a ***"! She did! Of course my *** was a pussy and was all talk...but still!
Like I said, my *** wasn't the worst because I wasn't around him enough for him to be. But, if you are a ****** and a good one at that, or you have a ****** who is a good one, you should be proud and/or grateful!
Cheers again to those fathers who are also real **** and not merely "donors"!
