Hello everyone.
I just wanted to let you know,I found a video posted on the internet just now.It was my first interview on video.I have to say that..The interviewer was very nice.I feel bad that I bored him.However,I was nervous as hell.As you know,I am a singer.
I am also great at speaking on film during porn(Gonzo).But I just can't do this type of stuff.WHen I was in a band a few yrs ago.I told one of the members.."If we ever play live,you will have to speak on the mic,introduce the songs,etc".The only hting I can see myself saying if I was singing live would be."How's everybody doing out there".
ANd,"Thanks for coming out tonight,I love you".I am always afraid of sounding stupid on a mic.I don't even leave voice messages for my friends.Well,most the time I don't.I did feel the questions were stupid,and they shot me w a shitty camera,and from the side view.QUest. like.."Where do u live"? You guys know I never give that info out.Infact,as u know,I have lived in 3 different states in the last 15 months.ANd I live in 2 different places.1 which is out of the U.S.
He may as well of asked me what my phone # was.ANd,"WHat did I do for NYE? How dumb of a ques. at a porn convention.If I answered honestly,I would have said,"Nothing.I stay off the road on that night.It frightens me.Many ppl die every year on that night due to drunk drivers.I will not celebrate that.I stayed home that night.But that answer would be lame.
The fact is..If he interviewed me while I was doing porn,I would have given the guy more,"Pizazz".I would have been fierce.But as u can see in the vid.I could give a shit.I went from being the biggest extrovert that my friends knew-becoming very much of an introvert.I don't go out very much.I have settled down.I am a full time dental assistant now.ANd thats all the info I will give.As far as the part where I said,"Do u want juice"? I was about to give him some.I think I was probably about to talk shit about certain ppl in the biz.Just cause I don't give a shit.But I bit my tongue.
I was very sick that day.I had tonsilitis and I went to the throat Dr. that morning and found out I have a hole in my asaphagus. I sound hoarse.ANd my usual voice is lower.I had a hard time being around that crowd.I felt so out of place.They were having fun,and really wanted to be there.I thought I did,but realized,I can't even be around it anymore.
Bangbros was so nice to me.ANd I felt bad that they printed soo many 8X10s to sign.ANd after day 1.I didn't show.Not to mention,I don't like the way the hair/makeup women did me up.My hair esp. looked awful.I am curious as to what u htink of the vid.One of the newbies wking for Bangbros asked me,"Why r u here when u don't even do porn anymore."I don't kno,ask Ginger Lynn why she was there when she doesn't do porn anymore.WHat a dummy.Jealous anyone?
And also accused me of acting like I looked down on those who were still doing it.I never made a comment that would make her think that.I don't know her name.But she was new in the biz.I thought it was cute to see that she was excited about her new career.I only wish I was.
I never was.Traci Lords mentions in an interview I saw the other day..That she did porn to release her anger,I dont remember the exact words.But I did it to piss people off in my life.Guys I was dating,tired of being the good girl,angry bitterness,growing up in an abusive household.Typical story.Just to remind u.I hated doing every video.I was just really good at smiling and saying things like,"Oh yeah,fuck me".Hate to ruin your fantasy.P.S. don't buy any porn from jaded.com Please.If I can help them lose 10 customers and a few hundred dollars,I will be happy.Here's the video
http://www.truveo.com/Crewsn-w-Justen-Neesa/id/2913399819
. Or if your only in Miami which club do you dance at so when I'm down there for Ultrafest and Winter Music Conference I can stop by.
