I had the day off from work that day, and had slept in...missed the whole thing unfolding. In fact, my phone being in the kitchen, I didn't hear it ringing and ringing...my brother had been calling me all morning. He ended up driving forty five minutes to the town I was living in at the time and woke me up by throwing rocks at my bedroom window...I let him in, and he looked like he'd seen a ghost.
"Turn on the T.V." was all he could say.
He just sat down and said not another word. At that point in the day, they were just showing the towers crumbling and falling...over and over and over and over...I couldn't get my head around what had happened.
We both drove back to his apartment...I remember every gas station I passed had lines weaving out of the station and onto the roads...people were stocking up at every single one I passed. Every single one. The radio was a blare and blur of questions...everyone had so many questions, but no one knew shit at that point.
We spent the day at his place with his wife watching the same clips...listening to the same frenzied reporters...the same questions...we talked with our mom on the phone about it all...even though I was a grown adult, I remember feeling so little, so small...even at 25 I really wanted a hug from my mom and for her to reassure us everything would be OK.
I was convinced WWIII had begun.
That night I drove back to Fort Collins alone...every gas station was still slammin'...there were trucks and cars already flying around the streets, every street, with American flags waving in the wind.
I got back to my apartment, and never felt so alone in all my life. There were neighbors milling around outside in the parking lot, but nobody was really saying anything. Everyone was so quiet. So scared.
Anybody who thinks nothing changed after that day is wrong. Every American changed that day. You can watch old TV programs, and I swear you can feel a lighter, happier, more care free pre-911 vibe than after. Those who were old enough to see it, and comprehend it as best as we were able at the time, were changed.
But we were not changed for the worse.