What do you people on here think of it? Have you ever tried to do it? Have you had suicidal thoughts and do you still have them?
I used to be heavily against it , cuz I'm tryin' to follow Christianity but since a year I've tried to understand why people do it and now I can understand in some cases why they do it. For me, I had Suicidal thoughts but there is a big difference between Suicidal Thoughts and The Action. So for me, It'll never be that worse that I'll go for the action. But what about u people?
This is weird. :wave2:
There is something strange going on here.
I was going to start a thread like this yesterday. I decided against it as I thought I would probably be banned or something. It is bad enough as it is.
Anyway.
To anyone who wants to put such thoughts into action:
Let me tell you something. This I have found. You may think this is cliché, but it is the truth. I have decided to live. No matter how many people want to destroy you, or wish you bad things, or take out their bad mood on you, it is not worth losing your life over. They believe in destroying your soul, then take pride in themselves in visiting that upon others. Even laugh about it.
Your life is precious.
It is yours. Your life you have been given.
I was faced with a choice. Once I made that decision inside myself, that I would face life, that things would get better, well, things did start getting better. It is hard to explain.
People say "life is what you make it." This is like people telling you how to do something but leaving out the details.
One does have a certain amount of responsibility, yes. You can decide to cheer people up, for instance. You will be surprised how many others like you, or actually need you around, or miss you when you are gone. They don't always show it. Even if you are not Mr or Ms Popular, you still have a role to play in others' lives.
I actually experimented with this yesterday. There is a guy in the class - a gay guy - who is very liked. One beautiful woman didn't even bother to look up at me when I said 'hello' to her, but when he popped in the door she looked up and paid close attention, smiling from ear to ear.
Well, I know enough now to know gay guys are sometimes the life of the party. Also, they do not threaten women. Plus this guy never shuts up. Ever.
I sat there sulking, but he actually greeted me, asking me how I'm doing. I took a huge step later, asking him to help me with something, which he did. I had like 90 odd rollers to take out of a mannequin head I had practiced on for a perm. (Spiral perm).
Why is practice spelt with a 'c' and not an 's'? English is weird. Anyway.
One time I didn't pitch for class, a few of the folk said they had missed me. I was stunned.
I made a decision I will be friendly to everyone. Cultivate friendships. Even if it just being polite. I have a lot to learn about people and relationships.
Once on a bus recently I decided to believe my life will get better. Shortly after that time it started improving. It is just a decision you make within yourself. The Universe then gets behind you to back you up.
Of course it helps if your life choices are at least reasonably sane and decent.
You know, when things press in on you, you have to decide things will get better, that there is a 'light at the end of the
tunnel.' You have to decide because things don't always get wonderfully better overnight.
Sure, the thoughts have come to me in the past. No job. No rent. No one. But, I decided to think that somehow something will happen that is good. That things will go right for me. that God will help me through. ('God helps those that help themselves ' is NOT in the Bible, by the way. I hate that sanctimonious crap, especially from those who give God as much recognition as they give an ant. Draw near to Me and I will draw near to you, however, is).
Things will press in on you. They will look dark. It will seem like no-one cares. Someone does, though. It is
ALWAYS worth deciding to carry on living, because there is ALWAYS something good that will happen
JUST around the corner.
I promise you this.
Recently, about March, I was in a situation where I was facing homelessness again. I was standing looking at homeless people, who sleep on the pavement at night. Some of them have messed up somewhere in their lives. Others have an opportunity to improve. There are instances to help them, like Transition Projects.
My best friend had passed away. I literally had no one. No brother. No mother. No father. No sister. No cousin, nephew, niece, aunt. Nothing.
My whole life I have grown up believing I am the only one.
Long story short. A week or so later, I received an e mail asking whether two names meant anything to me.
I was stunned. Ecstatic.
The names were of my brother and sister whom I had presumed lost. I never knew my brother's surname. I did not know my sister's name. My mother sent them away, then refused to ever mention them again, except once or twice in my presence.
Well, it turns out I have a whole army of cousins in Old Blighty. One of them had been under instructions from my brother to look for me. She had carried on, until they saw my name on Facebook.
Oh the wonder. Oh the joy.
I have another sister, as well, whom my mother gave up for adoption when she was five.
Yeah, I know. The 1938 - 1945 War.
I now have one brother, my dear brother, and two sisters. My precious sister and brother I have cried over for many years. They all have children, and even grandchildren.
So, I now have a responsibility towards my family.
All these years I was not the only one. They all live in the States. My cousins on my mother's side live in England. I did not have a LAN line when living in South Africa for very long. My brother had contacted South African Internal Affairs, twice, who said they had no record of me.
Ya, aish.
I promise you things do get better. They look dark now. Circumstances press in on you. However, if you believe in your heart things will improve, you will find it and recognise it when it comes along.
Even if you keep worrying, things will improve, but you have to hang in there. You have to stay alive for them to happen to you, isn't it?
EVERYTHING
HAPPENS
FOR
A REASON.
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