Tried a few times.
Liked it every time.
Used to it, everybody had it at every restaurant I work(ed) at.
Used it a couple times in a row, to kill out 2 back-to-back double shifts... felt the addiction 'rise up' and the need was like.. really, obnoxiously strong.
Quit, in a fit of good sense. Or what I thought was good sense.
I've still worked in .. shall we say, 'contrived' environments ~ every latino guy that works 2 jobs and isnt dragging ass BUT says he is fine is a lying-assed cokefiend.
What can I say about coke? It is an amazing drug. You could lose all the pounds, EVER.. assuming your heart can take that supermega crash diet. Have amazing days, all the energy, all the enthusiasm. All the 0 to 100 miles an hour of being blackout drunk and then POOF it just feels like a slight tug on your sense of balance, but MAN could I run a mile, I should work out.. I need to keep moving OMFG I NEED TO MOVE AROUND RUN RUNNNN.
Yeah, that.
That is how it felt, for me. Like... 'AMURRRIIICCAAAA FUCK YEAH!' type gung ho badass soldier, gotta kill thangs...
And the best diet drug,
and the answer to all your problems,
and cheap,
and dont do it. Life sucks to be sober, if you upgrade.. even once.
Wait, no. That doesnt describe it. Because we've all done it, or seen the movies.. or yada yada.
What I really describe it as is.. 'being a kid, again'.
SO much energy, everything is fun. Or boring. Or new. DUDE BRO, LETS GO PLAY OUTSIDE! ~ what it feels like, to 'recreationally' use it.
"Dude, I only slept 4 hours last night and I'm friggin fine." ~ that guy. THAT GUY. You know that guy. You tell him you feel tired and he is all like.. "Bro you dont work 2 jobs, go to college and still find time for the gym. Do you even lift?"
That guy uses. Something. He isnt 'high on life'.
And you suddenly have a 'radar' for fellow speeders. You get into conversations about using phosphorus or meth with some guy that is 2 weeks fresh outta D.O.C. ~ you start getting that 'young again' sense that you can get away with anything.
And you can. But not. But you could. Is it nice to fuck your girl for 7 hours and still go to work 'fuggin PUMPED'? Yeah. Is it nice to rob all the CVS's in your area for beer, kill that 24 pack to 'mellow out', find yourself in a newly diabetic state cuz you didnt eat for a few days... cook 3 meals at once, play burnout 3:Takedown with your bro all night after the fact, WHILE doing shots.. wondering how much 'gumming' does it take to really kick in like a line?
... and yeah. Then it wears off. And life is about garbage. For DAYS. You just frontloaded the whole month's worth of energy into a week.
and then you got that asshole in the corner who does this whole.. 'oh my heart is gonna stop for a minute.' guy. Theo did that. He did the line.. and literally dies. Just dies, sometimes. Wakes up as if you used a defib on him. Doesnt much mind it, it is just kinda that thing he does. I'd say 1 outta 10 times. He could never afford it like, constantly-constantly.. but he always seemed to have a tiny shitty bag. And he uses everything. But when he can afford it.
The kinda guy who should really BUDGET his drugs, but ends up taking a whole tsuboxone cuz ... well, thats just his thing.
