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Christine Mendoza
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Hello everyone! It's been a while since I've talked to you guys! Sorry for the hiatus. I've been going through a lot of drastic changes in my life with personal and work. Now the dust has been cleared and I'm feeling brand new!
The past few months, I was going through a HUGE breakup. I was with this person for 4 years and after the hard, emotionally wearing breakup...I'm finally at peace and am able to move forward with my life.
I've packed up, moved to a different city. I have a new outlook on love and relationships. I've always been a girlfriend/wife type. I never really been a serial dater, in fact I hated it. I kind of been in long term relationships back to back. Not because I couldnt be single... but I always loved being a girlfriend. I loved loving and caring for someone.. Even though some in the past didnt deserve it, I found fullfillment in loving someone.
I guess now that I'm older..and I have many more responsibilites other than just being a girlfriend, especially to someone who did not share my viewpoints in life and supported my decisons.
I feel good about my decision to break things off and really focus on my priorities.
My number one priority is my family of course. My parents are still out of work. Them being disabled, both diabetic and heart conditions, and senior citizens, I've forbidden them to work manual labor jobs and just asked them to stay home and try to perserve their health. I want them to be relaxed and happy.
My sister just started college so I'm putting her through school, as well as caring for my family in the Philippines and of course, Project Mendoza! (I will be returning to the Philippines in MARCH 2011 for Project Mendoza!)
My sister did get a job recently at the mall so she has been pulling her own weight and I appreciate her for that.
Soo, I'm trying my best to be SuperWoman around here! I have to admit, it has been hard for me. I've spent the last few months stressed out and trying to find focus and direction. With so much on my plate, I was feeling a little overwhelmed and I kind of shelled myself.
But like I mentioned earlier, I'm feeling great! I'm feeling brand new. So best believe you will be seeing more of me from now on!
I'm still @ a stand-still with what I want to do with my modeling. I'm sure a lot of you know about my guest feature dancing debut at club 939 in Hawaii! Yes, it is true, I did do a feature dance (NUDE) performance at club 939 in Hawaii. And it was an exciting, liberting experience. LOL.
People have asked why did I do it? Most people dont understand the responsibility I have with caring for my family. I have 6 immediate people to support in my parent's household. Aside from my parents and sister, my aunt and kids moved her from the Philippines and we support them till they can get on their feet. I pay all the bills, medical, food, cars, as well as my parent's hospital fees. My parents cannot qualify for government aid because my mother (ON PAPER) has too many assets.... the house, my car, my sister's car, her car, etc. But that's JUST on paper, cuz at the time she cosigned, she had a permanent job. It was hard for me to even get my own car, regardless of my modeling earnings because I am self employed. So my mom always put her credit down as my cosigner. So with the strict regulations on healthcare, I have to pay out of pocket for my parents to have insurance. Insurance for diabetic and disabled senior citizens is $1400 a month for them both. And thats just insurance for one month. haha crazy huh. So you can imagine my bills as well as my own personal bills are insane- especially for one person working.
So yes, to provide a better life for my family, I danced and twirled around a pole. And I did enjoy it and I do not regret it.
I am not the kind of girl who is a gold digger or relies a significant other or sugardaddies for money. I am fully capable of making my own. I'd rather be in love with someone than to be with someone for money. I know in my industry, models always end up with some rich guy to take care of them, knowing there is no love there. I'd rather fall in love and earn money the old fashioned way with work. But that's just me. And if it meant having to dance, then so be it. I earned every crinkled up dollar.
Now people ask, well why don't you just do nudes then?
WELL, there is a difference to dancing nude in a closed club with NO cameras and NO footage as opposed to a pictorial that pays once and that can be seen everywhere across the globe, and rotated on the net for FREE for the rest of my life. In 2 nights of feature dancing, I was able to make over $15,000. NO lapdances, just three 15 minute sets a night, and there is no coverage or photos of it. I'm not "bragging" about how much I made, you already know that's not my style- and my money doesnt even go to me or any kind of lavish lifestyle.. but I just figured it was a smarter decision to do it rather than do nudes for way less in a photoshoot.
I am not ready to be fully nude for photos....just yet. So I am not ruling out nudity in the future. Like I mentioned, I have a new outlook on things. .. I'm just content [for now] to do implied and maybe feature dance whenever I feel like it.
I've said in my interviews that I wouldnt go nude for the sake of my parents, but to be honest...my parents dont go online. They are quiet, reserved people. They already know I take very risque photos. I would NOT WANT them to know I danced or would even consider nude shoots. But I am prepared to have that talk with them if it ever had to be.
My parents are sick. I am going to do what I can to provide a healthy, happy, life for them. I never finished college so right now, this is what I need to do. I think they would understand if the "talk" ever had to come up.
SO to you all wondering, NO I will not be doing nudes at the moment. I need time to think about it. But YES, I have danced at club 939 and I would do it again. I was thinking of doing other shows in LA, SF, etc so some of you interested can come out.
I will post any information if I do book a feature dancing event. And if I do one, please come out and watch me!
I know some of you may be annoyed that I am still unsure about nudity. Please bear with me. I have a tremendous amount of pressure and responsibility and major decisions like this take time. I know my real fans and supporters understand me and have my back. SO thank you!
But please be aware that I AM going to be more active with my modeling.. I will be bringing back WEBCAM SOON! YAY! I will be doing a free chat for my members on this site as well as personal one on one chat on another camsite. I will post the details once everything is up and running.
Oh, and I started studying for Real Estate. I havent signed up for classes but I bought the books to study. I want my license! I figured the market will come up and I can do pretty good in it. I mean, I've been selling posters and 8x10s for years..I wanna try selling houses. LOL. So I'd love and appreciate any advice on that! bookchristine@gmail.com is my email address for any tips, advice you have for me.
So there you have it! My life as of late.
Thank you all so much for your continued love and support. I know I've been missing in action and it means SOOOOO SOOOOO much to me that you have stuck by me. I'm sorry for such a long email, and I apologize if it seemed sad, whiney, or if you heard violins playing in the backround as you read it. LOL. I figured I owed you all an explanation to my recent decisons, my reasoning behind them, and what I've been up to nowadays!
Its safe to say that I feel relieved and happy with my life now. The breakup was hard, work and moving has been stressful. But I'm doing good.
And I owe a lot to you all. Thank you for sticking by and continuing to stick by me.
I LOVE YOU ALL SO MUCH!!!!!
Hello everyone! It's been a while since I've talked to you guys! Sorry for the hiatus. I've been going through a lot of drastic changes in my life with personal and work. Now the dust has been cleared and I'm feeling brand new!
The past few months, I was going through a HUGE breakup. I was with this person for 4 years and after the hard, emotionally wearing breakup...I'm finally at peace and am able to move forward with my life.
I've packed up, moved to a different city. I have a new outlook on love and relationships. I've always been a girlfriend/wife type. I never really been a serial dater, in fact I hated it. I kind of been in long term relationships back to back. Not because I couldnt be single... but I always loved being a girlfriend. I loved loving and caring for someone.. Even though some in the past didnt deserve it, I found fullfillment in loving someone.
I guess now that I'm older..and I have many more responsibilites other than just being a girlfriend, especially to someone who did not share my viewpoints in life and supported my decisons.
I feel good about my decision to break things off and really focus on my priorities.
My number one priority is my family of course. My parents are still out of work. Them being disabled, both diabetic and heart conditions, and senior citizens, I've forbidden them to work manual labor jobs and just asked them to stay home and try to perserve their health. I want them to be relaxed and happy.
My sister just started college so I'm putting her through school, as well as caring for my family in the Philippines and of course, Project Mendoza! (I will be returning to the Philippines in MARCH 2011 for Project Mendoza!)
My sister did get a job recently at the mall so she has been pulling her own weight and I appreciate her for that.
Soo, I'm trying my best to be SuperWoman around here! I have to admit, it has been hard for me. I've spent the last few months stressed out and trying to find focus and direction. With so much on my plate, I was feeling a little overwhelmed and I kind of shelled myself.
But like I mentioned earlier, I'm feeling great! I'm feeling brand new. So best believe you will be seeing more of me from now on!
I'm still @ a stand-still with what I want to do with my modeling. I'm sure a lot of you know about my guest feature dancing debut at club 939 in Hawaii! Yes, it is true, I did do a feature dance (NUDE) performance at club 939 in Hawaii. And it was an exciting, liberting experience. LOL.
People have asked why did I do it? Most people dont understand the responsibility I have with caring for my family. I have 6 immediate people to support in my parent's household. Aside from my parents and sister, my aunt and kids moved her from the Philippines and we support them till they can get on their feet. I pay all the bills, medical, food, cars, as well as my parent's hospital fees. My parents cannot qualify for government aid because my mother (ON PAPER) has too many assets.... the house, my car, my sister's car, her car, etc. But that's JUST on paper, cuz at the time she cosigned, she had a permanent job. It was hard for me to even get my own car, regardless of my modeling earnings because I am self employed. So my mom always put her credit down as my cosigner. So with the strict regulations on healthcare, I have to pay out of pocket for my parents to have insurance. Insurance for diabetic and disabled senior citizens is $1400 a month for them both. And thats just insurance for one month. haha crazy huh. So you can imagine my bills as well as my own personal bills are insane- especially for one person working.
So yes, to provide a better life for my family, I danced and twirled around a pole. And I did enjoy it and I do not regret it.
I am not the kind of girl who is a gold digger or relies a significant other or sugardaddies for money. I am fully capable of making my own. I'd rather be in love with someone than to be with someone for money. I know in my industry, models always end up with some rich guy to take care of them, knowing there is no love there. I'd rather fall in love and earn money the old fashioned way with work. But that's just me. And if it meant having to dance, then so be it. I earned every crinkled up dollar.
Now people ask, well why don't you just do nudes then?
WELL, there is a difference to dancing nude in a closed club with NO cameras and NO footage as opposed to a pictorial that pays once and that can be seen everywhere across the globe, and rotated on the net for FREE for the rest of my life. In 2 nights of feature dancing, I was able to make over $15,000. NO lapdances, just three 15 minute sets a night, and there is no coverage or photos of it. I'm not "bragging" about how much I made, you already know that's not my style- and my money doesnt even go to me or any kind of lavish lifestyle.. but I just figured it was a smarter decision to do it rather than do nudes for way less in a photoshoot.
I am not ready to be fully nude for photos....just yet. So I am not ruling out nudity in the future. Like I mentioned, I have a new outlook on things.
.. I'm just content [for now] to do implied and maybe feature dance whenever I feel like it.I've said in my interviews that I wouldnt go nude for the sake of my parents, but to be honest...my parents dont go online. They are quiet, reserved people. They already know I take very risque photos. I would NOT WANT them to know I danced or would even consider nude shoots. But I am prepared to have that talk with them if it ever had to be.
My parents are sick. I am going to do what I can to provide a healthy, happy, life for them. I never finished college so right now, this is what I need to do. I think they would understand if the "talk" ever had to come up.
SO to you all wondering, NO I will not be doing nudes at the moment. I need time to think about it. But YES, I have danced at club 939 and I would do it again. I was thinking of doing other shows in LA, SF, etc so some of you interested can come out.
I will post any information if I do book a feature dancing event. And if I do one, please come out and watch me!
I know some of you may be annoyed that I am still unsure about nudity. Please bear with me. I have a tremendous amount of pressure and responsibility and major decisions like this take time. I know my real fans and supporters understand me and have my back. SO thank you!
But please be aware that I AM going to be more active with my modeling.. I will be bringing back WEBCAM SOON! YAY! I will be doing a free chat for my members on this site as well as personal one on one chat on another camsite. I will post the details once everything is up and running.
Oh, and I started studying for Real Estate. I havent signed up for classes but I bought the books to study. I want my license! I figured the market will come up and I can do pretty good in it. I mean, I've been selling posters and 8x10s for years..I wanna try selling houses. LOL. So I'd love and appreciate any advice on that! bookchristine@gmail.com is my email address for any tips, advice you have for me.
So there you have it! My life as of late.
Thank you all so much for your continued love and support. I know I've been missing in action and it means SOOOOO SOOOOO much to me that you have stuck by me. I'm sorry for such a long email, and I apologize if it seemed sad, whiney, or if you heard violins playing in the backround as you read it. LOL. I figured I owed you all an explanation to my recent decisons, my reasoning behind them, and what I've been up to nowadays!
Its safe to say that I feel relieved and happy with my life now. The breakup was hard, work and moving has been stressful. But I'm doing good.
And I owe a lot to you all. Thank you for sticking by and continuing to stick by me.
I LOVE YOU ALL SO MUCH!!!!!
Cool. Hopefully bi-weekly cam chats return soon.
Glad she finally decided to lay it all out there for everyone. I doubt she will ever do nude photos or videos though, shes been doing this too long, she would have by now if she was going to. If she does, I hope I will be the one shooting it
Mariahxxx
Official Checked Star Member
Hey Christine...if and when you are ready to do something erotic and ground breaking hit me up. I think a really hot strapon scene would be the perfect intro into a harder side of you for your fans...with you on either end of the strapon, up to you enitrely!
best of luck to you!
best of luck to you!
Vanilla Bear
Bears For Life
Excellent point-she should end her modeling career with a "bang," literally. Nothing too extreme like gonzo, interracial, dp, gangbang, cum-swapping or anything like that (though with a body like that she SHOULD), but maybe some soft "couple's" porn, along those lines...
Vanilla Bear
Bears For Life
http://www.**********/Christine_Pays/Christine_Mendoza/Ripped_Shirt
I think somebody posted the wrong video on the site
Even though the thumb is for the Censored set (first photo below), the video posted is that of the white lacey outfit (second photo below).:drool1: Very nice, just the wrong one:why: (NOT a complaint, just an observation)A few more teaser pics from our shoot coming to my site next month. The pics wont be edited or cropped on my site!
http://img246.imagevenue.com/img.php?image=43085_Christine5_edit_123_48lo.jpg
http://img157.imagevenue.com/img.php?image=43088_Christine6_edit_123_56lo.jpg
I think somebody posted the wrong video on the site
huh? I see the censored video :dunno:
Mr Ed,
Any chance you can put the censored vid on the site? The vid that was posted was the white lingerie one...
Any chance you can put the censored vid on the site? The vid that was posted was the white lingerie one...
yea same for me, not the censored one
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