Hi everyone,
I’ve come back to answer your questions from last week. I’m staying away from the ‘plus size’ debate. For the record, my current measurements are 40-28-38 and I am between 5’2 and 5’3. You can decide for yourself whether or not that is ‘plus size’.
I apologise in advance for the length of this post… if you’re just after boobies
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I didn’t feel as though there was a transition. The cameras simply captured what I would usually do in bed. I don’t always have sex so aggressively but sometimes I have sex even more so. The only real difference is that I don’t usually have to worry about where the light/camera is when I’m fucking at home.
Thank you for the kind words!
In regards to chatting with me at
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I thought I would let you know that I do at least one free public chat per day (usually more than one). You can actually sign up for a user name without buying any credits and chat with me for free when I am in my public chat room. There’s no catch, except that I am not allowed to get naked during these sessions (because people under the age of 18 are also capable of accessing the public room) and I may have to leave suddenly if someone purchases a private session.
To answer your questions
1) I am working in the adult industry full-time at the moment.
2) Yes. I’ve already delivered a conference paper this year based upon the research I undertook for my Honours thesis. I delivered it at an academic conference held at Griffith University in February.
3) For my thesis I conducted qualitative research into female experiences in pornography. This was my synopsis:
“Despite three decades of impassioned and informed debate, those interested in the status of women vis-à-vis pornography are still ****** to choose between two competing understandings of women: victims or agents. Within feminist debates, female performers in pornography have become powerful symbols of either victimisation or agency; yet, there has been very little engagement with female performers themselves. Responding to recent calls for more contextualised and qualitative studies of pornography, this thesis engages directly and critically with the personal narratives of six females who perform in the Australian pornography industry. This thesis makes a modest contribution to the feminist literature on pornography by illustrating the profitability of engaging directly with female performers. It does so by exploring two interesting vistas opened by original qualitative research that I conducted in the autumn of 2010. The first is that the continuing presence of the canonical anti-pornography narrative of victimisation constrains the terms of the debate on pornography and frames the language that performers can employ to speak about their experiences in the pornography industry. The second is that pornography is capable of functioning as a kind of queer space in which female performers are able to imagine new sexual possibilities and becomings. These two vistas are not only strong examples of the profitability of a direct and critical engagement with female performers in pornography, but also offer feminism fresh opportunities for moving beyond the victim/agent divide, and in doing so, gaining a greater understanding of the status of women vis-à-vis pornography.”
My small sample reflects an emphasis on depth rather than breadth. I basically wanted the challenge the persistent stereotype that women in the industry are ******, *******, pressured, pimped, ****-addicted, ******, ******** etc. (yes, ********! Read Catharine MacKinnon and Andrea Dworkin among others). I also wanted to avoid presenting the industry as a feminist utopia. Pornography is still a ‘business’ and like all businesses the workers are constrained by the current economic and socio-political environment i.e. capitalism. However, my findings suggest that pornography often has a positive impact upon the lives of performers. Pornography is the only form of popular social media in which women who fall outside of the current ‘ideal’ are celebrated rather than denigrated.
Phew!
As always, I’m happy to hear everyone’s thoughts. I knew some fans would be disappointed, and I can accept the fact that you’re ‘bummed’ about me going hardcore. But I take great issue with your assumptions, in fact I find them incredibly offensive.
Proposing that I ‘sold out’ by going hardcore suggests that I didn't
choose to do it for ME. You insinuate that I actually did it ‘for more coin’. This denies my own choice, my own voice and even my own agency. The money argument is just another way of silencing the voices of sex workers. The argument goes like this – nobody would do that [insert sex worker service here] unless they were a) ****** as a *****, b) pimped, c) insecure, d) in need of attention, e) in need of money [your argument], f) possessed by the devil. And
if any sex worker thinks that they truly want to do [insert sex worker service] of their own free will then they are either a) deluded b) insane or c) [my personal favourite] duped by the patriarchy. These options leave no room for the voices of sex workers…
Anyone who has followed my career knows that I don't do it for money. I've never 'gone through the motions' to get my buck and then fuck off home. I put my all into every single one of my scenes - be it solo, girl/girl and now, hardcore. This is my passion and I am never happier than when I'm in front of the camera.
The fact is, and here is the truth, I would have done it for FREE!
Thank you! I had an amazing time shooting the scene!
Thank you Benny!
Yeah, I would have been quite happy for him to eat me out for the whole scene!
Me too!
Thanks Rich! I really loved working with (fucking!) Maggie Green and I think she made the scene hot… but I can understand why you are disappointed that she didn’t go the whole way. In the end, she did what she felt comfortable with.
I hope you are all looking forward to a year full of new photo sets and videos 
