raven_azrael
Banned
At 30 years, I should say she was the most amazing person I met. However, she had her negatives. Unfortunately those negatives came out after mines so she said all those were a consequence of what I did wrong.
As we both said when breaking up we werent supposed to be together if seeing logically. 2 complete opposites. She likes to be the star of the night, I am a low profile guy. She can dance for all night, I **** dancing, but sometimes tried, even tried to learn salsa, but practically was kicked out, lol. She loves ****** reunions, I am a loner by default and **** christmas, etc. I love porn, she thinks it is bad.
Anyway, the first year I was so jelous because I once caught her in a lie. Maybe not important and not big deal, by I was not so confident. After arguing I changed and controlled my way of reacting, but she found out my co worker who has a Tanya Song like body was the girl I was always willing to fuck and she was my best friend, so she became the jelous one. Unfortunately, my friends, without knowing managed to send me messages just saying hello or asking anything and my gf felt uncomfortable. We argued that I could not leave a friends because she was jeloaus. anyway, time ****** and I have always been yelling when being mad and she sometimes- not on purpose according to her- yelled at me when asking a favour. Months go and we started insulting. It was a natural reaction as no one wanted to be the weaker. But I loved her, but couldnt managed my temper. She wasnt as sweet as the beggining, always said i was pesimistic, but i was realistic. she wanted to spend money in a business that I knew ding the math was not profitable but never beleived me.. anyway the business never came through. Finally I was going to start with a her a probable succesful business I planned for some time and we argued cause I wanted the best for her in he own business but she was losing clients because she was doing it laid back, not focusing in the best way. I pushed her to be more responsible but I was angry, cause she could be spending more than she thinks. We argued badly. Then we argued because of food and I told her to shup up. I know I was a dick all the time. I didnt want to, but I had bad mood sometimes, I realized that I love her more than I even thought. Now she says the loved she had for me died cause of so much fights. We were going to marry next year, going to Canada, start our business. Now she dont wanna have business with me even though she needs it, too. Previous realtionships didnt evended this way, maybe cause this time I feel I did all wrong and damaged her. She said I can call her to keep been friends, but not answering my calls.
Maybe I am naive, despite being so harmful and childish I love her and learnt that I should manage my behavior, but it doesnt make sense to be better for someone else. Despite being opposites we had the same goals, dreams, hopes and thought alike in some things.
As we both said when breaking up we werent supposed to be together if seeing logically. 2 complete opposites. She likes to be the star of the night, I am a low profile guy. She can dance for all night, I **** dancing, but sometimes tried, even tried to learn salsa, but practically was kicked out, lol. She loves ****** reunions, I am a loner by default and **** christmas, etc. I love porn, she thinks it is bad.
Anyway, the first year I was so jelous because I once caught her in a lie. Maybe not important and not big deal, by I was not so confident. After arguing I changed and controlled my way of reacting, but she found out my co worker who has a Tanya Song like body was the girl I was always willing to fuck and she was my best friend, so she became the jelous one. Unfortunately, my friends, without knowing managed to send me messages just saying hello or asking anything and my gf felt uncomfortable. We argued that I could not leave a friends because she was jeloaus. anyway, time ****** and I have always been yelling when being mad and she sometimes- not on purpose according to her- yelled at me when asking a favour. Months go and we started insulting. It was a natural reaction as no one wanted to be the weaker. But I loved her, but couldnt managed my temper. She wasnt as sweet as the beggining, always said i was pesimistic, but i was realistic. she wanted to spend money in a business that I knew ding the math was not profitable but never beleived me.. anyway the business never came through. Finally I was going to start with a her a probable succesful business I planned for some time and we argued cause I wanted the best for her in he own business but she was losing clients because she was doing it laid back, not focusing in the best way. I pushed her to be more responsible but I was angry, cause she could be spending more than she thinks. We argued badly. Then we argued because of food and I told her to shup up. I know I was a dick all the time. I didnt want to, but I had bad mood sometimes, I realized that I love her more than I even thought. Now she says the loved she had for me died cause of so much fights. We were going to marry next year, going to Canada, start our business. Now she dont wanna have business with me even though she needs it, too. Previous realtionships didnt evended this way, maybe cause this time I feel I did all wrong and damaged her. She said I can call her to keep been friends, but not answering my calls.
Maybe I am naive, despite being so harmful and childish I love her and learnt that I should manage my behavior, but it doesnt make sense to be better for someone else. Despite being opposites we had the same goals, dreams, hopes and thought alike in some things.
