Do you ever get pissed off with people taking the piss out of you, using you, pretending to be your friend or blowing hot and cold all the time?
Do you ever feel like turning round to these people and saying "FUCK OFF!"?
Or are you one of those cool Karma kind of guys, who stay relaxed and calm through any situation?
Are you afraid to tell people to "FUCK OFF" in fear it causes you more problems?
Have you ever done this, and then felt bad afterwards?
I'm like that in a lot of ways. People walk all over me and take advantage of me on a constant basis. I find that a lot of people don't
truly care about me, but they treat me as a
convenience, making
very little effort to actually care for me. I just recently lost my so-called best friend to something like this.
She was my best friend for the past 8+ years and I loved her, supported her and cared for her as if she was my sister. I even told her that I considered her to be the sister I never had. Originally, we lived only a few streets away from one another. For lack of a better description, our relationship was that of "boyfriend/girlfriend" without the physical stuff. We would hang out all the time, talk to eachother on the phone almost every day, we knew everything about one another, etc.
When I lived a few streets away from her, she made an effort to be my friend. Then, when I moved here to Chicago a few years ago, the phone calls stopped coming, she somehow became impossible to reach and I wouldn't get in touch with her for months at a time on occassion. Well, long story short, she ended our friendship because I called her out on how shitty of a friend she was being and told her that I felt like nothing more than a convenience to her. She pretended to be offended that I would think such a thing, got "mad" at me and ended our friendship.
She said, and I quote, "I don't understand how you can still care about me so much and still want to be my friend. You live in another state now, so, I guess I've just moved on."
How do you "move on" from a
long-term friendship, just because you don't live right next door to eachother anymore? How

is
that?
People treat me like that all the time and yeah, it fucking sucks. You know that saying "nice guys finish last"...it's the most honest and true statement that has ever been said. If it wasn't, then I wouldn't have been used so many times throughout my life. Fucking bitches.
Eh, I guess I vented a bit there. Sorry. :dunno: