Here I am, answering my own questions!
Be prepared, this is going to be a book.
Main Questions:
1. What do you think makes you stand out the most from other models?
The fact that I don't follow the industry standards for shooting. Everything that I shoot is my choice. A year ago, I wasn't doing videos and had no desire what-so-ever to take part of them due to my experiences and personal situations that occurred when I shot porn when I was 18. The pay was considerably low, the guy who directed me was a bit of an ass especially when I decided to quit, and I hated the overall fakeness of it. People with no experience in the adult business assume that all the girls are either on drugs, are obsessed with sex, and they don't fully understand what goes on behind the scenes. They think it's all fun, that there's nothing more to it than having sex in front of the camera. I could go on and on about this, but anyway, I came to conclusion that instead of not doing videos because I'm not what people want or expect, I would do them on my own terms, my way or the highway. Why fake an orgasm if it's so much torture for me to fake it? Why not just accept who I am and roll with it? So that's what I'm doing and will continue to do until I'm no longer in this business. Although I am partially doing adult work for the money, that's not the only thing that drives me. If it were, I wouldn't still be here, because I'm not making much. The fact is, I love what I do and if someone doesn't like it or like me, they can kiss my ass.
2. What would you do with the MissFO prize money if you won?
I'd give some of it to my mom. She's always been struggling and I'd really like to see her live a better, happier life. In the past 4 years, she's dealt with being evicted from the place I used to call home where I was raised, going bankrupt, moving into a house built and owned by some Amish who let her and my stepdad live there in exchange for being on call 24/7 to haul them around (hauling Amish is kind of a popular job for some people who live in those communities) with no cable, internet, or heat, got kicked out of that house, and is now living in a crooked house built in the 1800s. My family has always been poor, and I just want for myself and my family to be able to live a comfortable life, not always living paycheck to paycheck, not worrying about whether or not I can afford to put money on my phone next month.
And of course I'd use some of it to splurge on maybe a vacation or something. But mostly, I would save it. That is, if I won the main category, which isn't going to happen, at least not this year (Miss VVHHH has got that one in the bag I think!). If I won Best OCSM, which is the only other category I'm in, I'd simply spend the money as wisely as I could. Use if for things I need.
3. For those of you who do hardcore, what is your favorite content to shoot and why?
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4. For those of you who don't do hardcore, what is your reason for not doing so?
I don't shoot boy/girl, whether video or photo, and that's simply because I'm taken. As for not doing hardcore in general, it's for pretty much the same reasons stated in my answer to the first question, that I hate how fake and forced it is. Very few other people in the adult business shoot the same type of content I do, most of them are all about looking hot, sounding hot, talking dirty, being loud, faking orgasms, just pleasing the camera, and if pleasing the camera means put your comfort zone on the back burner, that's what they'll do. I'm the type of girl who can't be bought. If I don't like it and feel passionately about it, it's not happening, so go find someone who will do it, there's plenty of other girls out there.
5. What are your most and least favorite things about modeling?
Most:
Traveling. Before I started modeling, I only ever dreamed of going to the places I've been to now, even if I've still only been to a few. Last year I went to Florida, this year so far I've gone to Hawaii, and I'm living in NY now. I want to travel the world.
But overall I just love modeling in general. I like seeing my photos from shoots and being able to say, "Wow, that's me!"
I also love that since I do it my way, I get total creative control over the shoots for my website. Many times, getting ready for the shoot is more fun than the actual shoot itself!
Least:
The people who hound on me about what they think I should be doing, and the people who talk to me as if I'm nothing but a piece of ass. There have been people on facebook who would IM me saying, "Hey babe. You're hot." And sit there waiting for a reply, meanwhile I'm in the middle of uploading new photos to my facebook album or in a hurry just checking my feed. When I don't reply, they'll call me a bitch. Seriously. I blocked a guy once who did that, but not without bitching him out about it first! LOL
I hate the people who think I need to be doing hardcore, insulting me, saying stuff like, "You're nothing but a wannabe, you're never gonna make money unless you let a nice big dick pound your ass." Just... fuck you, asshole. People talk to me as if I haven't heard it before, as if I haven't put shit into consideration already. I will never stop being amazed out how stupid and ignorant some people are. It's un-fucking-believable.
And I absolutely hate that people in my personal life will judge me so negatively for doing this. Before I got into this, I had friends who would say, "Man, I wish I could have sex for money. That'd be the best job ever!" And once I got into it, one of those very same people said, "That's disgusting." to me after I came back from my first trip there. People are so negative and judgmental, it really makes me hate society, which I don't want. I want to love this world, and no matter what I go through, I always try to keep up hope and have faith in people. Back when I did porn (boy/girl videos and such, now it's all solo), it caused a lot of problems in my life, I've lost some of my closest friends and it caused an insane amount of drama in the relationship I was in at the time. The boyfriend I had knew I was in porn before we got together, and because I was in porn, he expected me to be okay with him wanting a 3some and going out on his own without talking to me first, looking for girls who would be interested in it.
Anyway....
6. Do you have another job outside of modeling?
I used to be a shift manager at a restaurant. When I was working there and I ever mentioned it on here, I never let it slip where I worked so that no one could ever find me. But now I can say it: I worked at Pizza Hut! For over 3 years. I was a waitress for less than a year there and then I became a manager. GOD it sucked. I cannot stress enough how happy I am to no longer be there! No more putting up with customers treating me like downright shit. Yeeess! Suck my dick, bitches.
7. Outside of modeling, what are your goals?
Get my GED, get into writing more- I want to write articles for magazines and mostly, I want to write film scripts, travel the world if I get the opportunity, and start doing MUA (makeup artist) work more. For the time being, my goal is to get this apartment I'm living in cleaned up and livable!
8. Why should people vote for you?
I don't have much money, never have, so winning a category would mean the world to me. No exaggeration. I work my ass off for what I do, even when things seem hopeless and I get discouraged. My website has always had less than 20 members, usually around 9 or 10 members, and I know the reasons why (it's because I don't do the types of videos people want and because I don't do webcam), yet I'm still doing this. Why? Because I love it. Any other girl would have quit by now if they were in my position. No other girl would put in the amount of money I've put in for so little in return. Take all that into consideration and you'll know that I'm in this because I genuinely love it, not just for the money, not because someone else wants me to.
And why show all your love to just one girl, especially if that girl already has lots of money, is already doing fucking fantastic in this business? Sure, by all means, vote for her in a category or two, but spread of that around. Give some other girls a chance at winning one of the categories too. I see too many people who are voting for just one girl in all their votes, and that drives me nuts. You can't say that you're doing that because you don't like any of the other girls, because on that I call bullshit. There's tons of girls in here, you just have to open your eyes, open your mind, get to know them, give them a chance.
9. Who, besides yourself, do you support in the contest?
For Best Newcomer, I'm supporting Jaana Ruutu, all the way. For Best Euro Babe and Miss FreeOnes, I'm supporting Miss Hybrid. They both really deserve those titles. It's kind of hard now to support each of them in all 3 categories since I am voting for myself in my two categories, so I switch it up between the two. Miss Hybrid is doing wonderfully without me anyway, so mostly I'm giving my third vote to Jaana.
EDIT: I just realized that I have more than 3 votes! I didn't know that! LOL I knew I already voted today and went back to check on the lineups, noticed it said I still have a couple votes left. Yay! I can vote for both girls every day!
Random Questions:
1. Who do you think would win in a fight, a taco or grilled cheese sandwich?
Taco
2. If you were to jump off a cliff, knowing that death awaits you, would you rather fall face down (looking at the ground) or face up (looking at the sky)?
Face up. I already know that I'm going to die when I git the ground, so I'd want to enjoy the view on the way down.
3. When you're an old fart, say 89 years old, what will matter most to you?
To be happy and to look back on my life pleased with what I've done with my life. No regrets.
4. What is your biggest fear?
Going insane. Seriously. If you've ever done acid, you'll know why. Your mind is capable of some serious shit, and to be forever stuck in state of mental instability, where your mind is constantly fucking with you, would be a complete nightmare.
5. Would you rather be stranded in the ocean, in the desert, or on an island, and if you could have one item with you, what would it be?
On an island, where I can at least hunt animals and create shelter. The item would be a machete. I could use it to carve things, whack away at bushes, climb trees, kill animals, etc.
6. Let's say God exists. If you were at Heaven's gates and God asked you, "Why should I let you in?" What would you say?
I would say, "You created me knowing I'd go through the bullshit I had to deal with growing up. I made some promises and broke some of them, I've made mistakes just like anyone else, I've been mistreated, and I made some poor choices. But I'm only human, and with being human, that is all inevitable. All I can say is that I'm sorry for the wrongs I've done. Nothing I ever did was done with bad intentions. I only ever wanted to be happy, I don't expect to be forgiven for my mistakes, but I hope that you will. If I don't get into Heaven, it's my own fault and I'll accept that. But I reeeaaallllly don't want to go to Hell!"
7. If you could travel back in time, when would you travel to and why?
I'd go back to when Adam and Eve were supposedly created. I want to see whose fault it really was!
8. The age old question: If you could have 3 wishes (Rule: No wishing for more wishes!), what would they be?
- For that drug in the movie Limitless to be real, but only without the negative side effects on your health, and for me to have an unlimited supply of it. Haven't seen Limitless? Go watch it!
- To be forever healthy
- For all my loved ones to be happy
