I've experienced that treating a forum like a blog to spout out one's woes never ends well, but apparently I'm not a fast learner, so here goes.
I'm not some ultra player who has slept with thousands of women, in fact I only lost my virginity at 21. I got my first Girlfriend when I was nearly 24 and only through did I start having regular sex. When I was half way through being 26 years old, my second girlfriend and I split up and only then did I start living the life I had, until then, felt I'd always missed out on. You see, throughout my late teens and early 20's, I was the nice guy who girls would friendzone while douche-bags got all the action. By 26 though, I'd learned through girlfriends how to use my over sized dick (it really is a monster that has actually cost me a bunch of lays because some women just refuse to to even try it) to good use. Once I started though, there was no going back:
To date I've been in 10 devils threesomes, 3 gangbangs, 1 FFM threesome, and one double blowjob, plus I once made out with one girl while fingering another. I also once got a blowjob from this girl while her bisexual boyfriend watched. He told her it was her 21st birthday present. I've been in many situations where I've had sex while people watched. I've been in over a dozen amateur movies plus 2 professional ones.
I've given over 10 girls facials, I've received rim jobs, been fingered, deep-throate (but rarely since I'm too wide for most girls). I've done double on one girl once. I've done it with toys on girls many times. I've only done anal properly (as in for more than 5 minutes at a time) with 3 girls. I've done outdoor stuff, on public transport. I've done it with whole social circles of girls. I've been with porn actresses, pin ups, burslesque dancers, all kinds of crazy. I think that I've really made up for being friendzoned for 10 years. Now everybody who knows me thinks I'm a whore. Hell I once even got paid by a girl to have sex (it's true) but I was seeing her anyway so I didn't have a problem accepting her money since she was cute.
Somewhere along the line I realized I'm not able to return to normal sex and this might cost me any hope I have of ever having a normal relationship again. I find that I need to look at porn and do all these extreme things or I get bored. I've not actually felt in love with anybody for over 4 years. The last time was with the porn actress I was dating and that ended really fucking badly. She cheated on me with 4 guys (outside of porn) and betrayed my trust in more ways than I care to mention. I feel like I get with all these women to fill in some void and it's only half working. Sure my ego is now in a good place but I'm not really content.
I'm not some ultra player who has slept with thousands of women, in fact I only lost my virginity at 21. I got my first Girlfriend when I was nearly 24 and only through did I start having regular sex. When I was half way through being 26 years old, my second girlfriend and I split up and only then did I start living the life I had, until then, felt I'd always missed out on. You see, throughout my late teens and early 20's, I was the nice guy who girls would friendzone while douche-bags got all the action. By 26 though, I'd learned through girlfriends how to use my over sized dick (it really is a monster that has actually cost me a bunch of lays because some women just refuse to to even try it) to good use. Once I started though, there was no going back:
To date I've been in 10 devils threesomes, 3 gangbangs, 1 FFM threesome, and one double blowjob, plus I once made out with one girl while fingering another. I also once got a blowjob from this girl while her bisexual boyfriend watched. He told her it was her 21st birthday present. I've been in many situations where I've had sex while people watched. I've been in over a dozen amateur movies plus 2 professional ones.
I've given over 10 girls facials, I've received rim jobs, been fingered, deep-throate (but rarely since I'm too wide for most girls). I've done double on one girl once. I've done it with toys on girls many times. I've only done anal properly (as in for more than 5 minutes at a time) with 3 girls. I've done outdoor stuff, on public transport. I've done it with whole social circles of girls. I've been with porn actresses, pin ups, burslesque dancers, all kinds of crazy. I think that I've really made up for being friendzoned for 10 years. Now everybody who knows me thinks I'm a whore. Hell I once even got paid by a girl to have sex (it's true) but I was seeing her anyway so I didn't have a problem accepting her money since she was cute.
Somewhere along the line I realized I'm not able to return to normal sex and this might cost me any hope I have of ever having a normal relationship again. I find that I need to look at porn and do all these extreme things or I get bored. I've not actually felt in love with anybody for over 4 years. The last time was with the porn actress I was dating and that ended really fucking badly. She cheated on me with 4 guys (outside of porn) and betrayed my trust in more ways than I care to mention. I feel like I get with all these women to fill in some void and it's only half working. Sure my ego is now in a good place but I'm not really content.
I get what you mean though. The OP's story is quite obvious.
